| new journal. |
[05 Jan 2005|07:27pm] |
I'm tired of adding people, just post requests & I'll probably say yes.
I've decided sadpixeleyes doesn't fit me anymore. I'm coming to a good point in my life and I'm not always sad now. So fuck this journal. I'll be using ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) ryeuhh from now on.
I'm adding people who:
01. I know/have met before.
02. I like.
03. Who add me & I can stand.
04. Who ask to be added nicely.
05. I have some interest in.
06. Try their luck.
<3,
Riah
p.s. I'll be adding some of you soon, so check before you ask & just add me back. If I don't add you right off, it doesn't mean I won't.
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| shooooes. |
[04 Jan 2005|05:09am] |
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Ok, prepare for a shallow post.
( are these shoes ugly? )
I adore them & I hate Banana Republic.
What a dilemma.
/shallow post
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| I've got it. |
[03 Jan 2005|01:53pm] |
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I've finally made a resolution for the year. I'm going to buy a decent (sturdy) bookshelf, find a place in my house to actually put it (I don't think it'd fit in my room), and start buying books again. I'm always going to stores and finding books I'd enjoy having, but I never seem to actually buy them. I bought one yesterday, it's a book of 1960s American ads, very amusing and beautiful all at the same time. Taschen is really awesome, check out the site. There you'll find the book I purchased, of course. Ok, I have nothing more to say really. I guess I'll be leaving soon.
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| new years. |
[03 Jan 2005|12:33am] |
I'm alive & still in Knoxville, but only until tomorrow, hopefully. I love it here, but I don't want to impose on Sarabeth anymore. That girl's a gem, I really adore her.
Jeff made my new year wonderful, as I suspected he would. We had lots of fun (I hope he has the same opinion of the weekend). I just wish I could've been with him longer, but alas. I don't know when I'll get to see him again & I'm already bummed out about that.
Enough of this, I just wanted to say hello and tell you all I'm alive. I hope everyone had a nice new years and let's hope 2005 will be awesome.
Love,
Riah
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| ugh. |
[30 Dec 2004|02:50am] |
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I finally have a boyfriend that knows how to dress and I'll be goddamned if I don't own anything halfway nice. I don't even own dress shoes!! This could be easily remedied if I didn't need something decent to wear by Friday. Fuck it, we'll be running around all night, trusty sneakers will do. I'm sure he won't stop loving me or anything.
I suck at life.
I'll never be one of those "smooth" people.
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| RIP |
[29 Dec 2004|06:56pm] |
Jerry Orbach died. I'm sad.
:(
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| I'm updating a lot. |
[29 Dec 2004|04:21am] |
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I can't stop looking at this. It's breaking my heart and making me want to cry. I can't stand it when there's absolutely nothing I can do about something and there are far too many things that I can't do anything about.
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| ! |
[29 Dec 2004|03:02am] |
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I love Burma Shave slogans!
My job is
Keeping faces clean
And nobody knows
De stubble
I've seen
Burma-Shave
The whale
Put Jonah
Down the hatch
But coughed him up
Because he scratched
Burma-Shave
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| I smell a new year. |
[29 Dec 2004|01:14am] |
I wish I was 18 again & more self-important than a stockbroker in the 80s snorting coke before he throws himself out of his high-rise office window.
Only... not really. Think about it.
p.s. 12 whole beets in a can is not nearly enough.
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| jldm. |
[27 Dec 2004|04:14am] |
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Jeff is so beautiful.
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| DECEMBER 30TH. |
[26 Dec 2004|11:13pm] |
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Thursday, Dec. 30th the following bands are playing at The Backstage in the show I have been putting together for quite some time now!
THE SENSE
ATROPOS OR MISERY LOVES COMPANY (I'll know later)
LEAVE IT AT THE DOOR
OCTALUX
CHANGE 58
I'D RATHER DIE
No one else! That's it. The bill is FULL.
Show starts at 6:30 (maybe earlier) & it's $5.
Please show up!
( FLYER by Kaira! )
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| yo ho ho ho. |
[26 Dec 2004|12:46am] |
So I did get the digital camera, as I suspected. Of course, it's not actually here yet, but I'm cool with that. My granny told me to order myself a coat and I did; a green pea coat from Delia*s. My mommy bought me lipgloss and the cutest flamingo charm (I <3 flamingos!), it looks like stained glass, sorta. She bought me new silver hoop earrings, which I needed badly. I've abused my favorite pair. My sissy bought me Donnie Darko and some cute jewelry that's cultured pearls & leather, it's way cuter than it sounds, haha. I think my aunt might give me a substantial amount of money Monday when we go to visit her, but I'm not sure. If she does, I'm buying the jacket I will post below. I really love jackets and hoodies, I'm a fiend for them.
( oh yeah! )
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| wire-ring. |
[25 Dec 2004|03:11am] |
I was given a journal my senior year of high school that I've never used. Not one word is written in it and it's probably covered in dust, still in the bag it was given to me in. This is an extremely sad situation. My English teacher from junior year gave me that journal along with a picture frame that is also still empty upon my graduation after having been her teacher's aid for a semester. She was, is, and always will be so beautiful to me. One of those people who makes you believe in humanity. She had the patience of Job and her only flaw was letting people (students) walk all over her, for the most part. I tried to combat that as much as possible while I was her aid. Anyway, why have I left these gifts so blank? Why haven't I lived at all? My life is so void. I think I care about people to a fault, but I'm really only going through the motions of life. I'm not even doing a good job of faking; I hardly do anything. I really do care for that boy I've written so fondly about recently. So much it scares me. I see possibilities for the first time in so many years. I want to fill those gifts with me: my joy, my sadness, my insecurities, my possibilities. I won't lie, I want him to be a part of them, but only if that's what he really wants.
Sometimes being happy, baby, is what I'm most afraid of.
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| happy holidays? |
[25 Dec 2004|01:12am] |
Maybe I should stop loving so I don't have to run the risk of hurting again. I'm entirely too paranoid and I think I'm coming on way too strong. Whatever, we'll see.
I didn't ask for anything for Christmas, but I think my mom bought me a digital camera. I don't know, I remember mentioning in passing that I'd like to have a decent one. She probably paid way too much for it and I'll feel guilty. Other than that I know my sister bought me Donnie Darko and that alone would satisfy me. I really still hate that I love that movie so much, but oh well, I go the way of sheep.
Have a pleasant holiday, everyone.
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| oy. |
[24 Dec 2004|01:14am] |
Dear Drums & Tuba,
I love you. Thank you for existing. You truly make me smile.
Sincerely,
Mariah
I hope Jeff is home safe & warm... [edit] he is, sorta.
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| uh |
[22 Dec 2004|10:47pm] |
I just heard At The Drive-In on Pimp My Ride.
LOL
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| oh what a sky. |
[22 Dec 2004|07:39am] |
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The sky this morning is so beautiful I could cry. I had to write this here just to document how gorgeous it is. It's cold and the wind's howling, but from inside my heated house, it's amazing to see. Lilac, pink, blue, and yellow... pastels cover the sky.
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| some of this x-posted from my xanga. |
[22 Dec 2004|04:32am] |
I woke up because I had to piss like a race horse.
I wish some people would stop being so "serious" all the time.
I wish I could make everyone I care for truly happy for one day. Even if after that day they came down off all that happiness like an addict going cold turkey. At least they's have that experience and realize it doesn't take much to get it back. Happiness shouldn't cost as much as it seems to for some people.
I feel corny 24/7 now that I have Jeff. I don't want to be one of those people that talks about their wonderful boyfriend all the time, but he really is one of the best things to happen to me in a long, long time. Of course, I have my mother to talk to about Jeff. She enjoys hearing it and is a bit relieved I finally found someone who treats me well. It's been a long time coming. Other guys are good to me, to this day, but none of them in this way.
I realize he's made me truly happy, but I could've been all along. I wasted so much time being unhappy for no fucking reason. But, I'm so glad I have him to share this with. I'm glad I can give him some of the happiness he's giving me; I just hope I can keep it up!
I think I'll be keeping a real journal from now on so I can be as corny as I want and also as cruel as I want to without precious little e-comments.
Also! I think I talked a friend into coming to visit and I'm so excited, because I miss him so much, it's been far too long.
I saw Finding Neverland with Caleb. It was pretty good and sappy/depressing in parts, so it fit my mood sort of. I'd like to read up on James Barrie now and see how true-to-life all that jazz really was. Then again, who really knows? I don't think he was a kiddy toucher; I think people strive to see impurity even where it is not. All I know is, it's sort of weird he willed Peter Pan to always be played by a woman, but it makes sense in a way, too. This all really has nothing to do with the movie, just rambling!
I want to see Life Aquatic really, really badly!! I don't know why, it just looks like a movie I'd enjoy. I love that I can stand watching movies again. I saw Ocean's Twelve and A Series of Unfortunate Events while in Tennessee. Three movies in a short period of time is some sort of record for me. Maybe my patience is coming back to me, piece by piece.
Ok, I'll shut up for now.
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